DEAREST

I wish I could stop thinking that you are taking too much from me and I wish I could atleast tell you that. But I simply can't. It will be unfair of me because I know you did not ask for them. I gave them without you asking. I'm not even sure if you need them. I thought you would love me for that.
Lately, I noticed that you are a taker by nature and maybe I can't really tell if they matter to you. And because of all these, I think I have pushed our relationship too far like almost dragging it to where we are now.
Maybe I should have thought of these before giving up myself to you. Because right now, I couldn't blame anyone but myself. The hurt feeling that I get at the end of the day is starting to drive me crazy. I want to have a life. I don't want my life to depend on you. But i know that is impossible now because I cannot live without you. I will always fear losing you because you are just too precious to me.
I wish I could see that you desire me like the way you desire the things that are so important to you so that I may feel loved. But I can see the opposite. And that itself breaks my heart.